Homesick

As I sit here surround by mounds of boxes packed with memories of all sorts - my heart aches for home. ~BUT~ home isn't what it used to be. I wish things could go back to normal. Do I even remember what "normal" is? Sure I do. It's when mom and dad were still together. Even past that,.. they have been separated for years and things were even normal after the separation. I guess people change, but your parents aren't supposed to. Going home now is like going to stay with friends you haven't seen since elementary school - it's just a bit akward. I just feel like i'm missing so much...

I miss my dad. Having not talked to him in almost a month crushes my spirit. It's hard enough being hundreds of miles away, but when the distance between two people isn't the miles that separate them,.. the pain is unbearable. I know I may have taken a new last name, but I will always be his little girl.

I talk to mom most every day. I'm so glad she supports me and lets me know daily of her love for me. She has always been my prayer warrior as well as my cheerleader. She listens and always seems to understand me. I miss her hugs and just her pure "momliness."

I even miss Rob. We see eachother often but it still seems like forever the few days that we are apart. He was in the range today and we've hardly talked at all and the ten minutes we did talk was: "an-- ju- but i'-- when d-- hello?-- are yo--".... stupid phone reception. That broke my heart even more. I can't wait to move this weekend to just be with my husband, my best friend.

I have made such great friends and memories here, but it's time to go. I'll miss them, but they will all be such a part of my life forever.

My First "Blog"

Well, I really think I am going to like this idea of "blogging." I love to journal, but sometimes I fear I forget or simply just do not have the time.

A lot has taken place in my life in the past few months - well really, the past few years - but since I don't have all day to write about the past years, I'll just catch you up on the past few months and start fresh with that!

I am currently living in South Carolina, but only for one more week. (YAY!) On the first of May this year ('09) I met Robert Byron Auman. We met on a silly website - He was informed of the website and got on from curiosity/boredom/silliness?.. and around the time he got on was the day I got on to delete my account because I never used it and was tired of getting emails from it. I received a simple email saying "Wow, your dog is big." It was unlike other dumb messages - it was simple, not dirty or a pickup line -I was intrigued. I simply stated back "thanks, I really like him."

Those simple messages started what is now our lives together! As of July 28th 2009 I became Emily Rose Auman. The very short months leading up to this even were filled with MANY long conversations, prayers, encouragement, praise, love, laughter,.. things I had longed for! I could not be more happy!

One snag in the picture is that my dad is not so happy about the decision and my sister has decided to not speak to me over the matter as well beings how they did not know about our little wedding until after the fact (we did a courthouse wedding with plans of a bigger wedding this winter). His parents as well as my mother and friends are all very supportive, but I understand why my dad is not well with it. It was fast, yes. But as cliche as it sounds - when you know, you just know - and we knew.

Rob is in the military (Navy) as a medic (for the Marines). I don't think it will be an easy lifestyle per-sae, but he just took a job where he'll be home more and away less. (and is non-deployable - yay!) He has been married previously, although the divorce was not his fault I do honestly believe that he has learned from it and has become a better man/husband because of it.

I am currently working as a medical assistant here in SC, but only a few more days of that and I move on to my new job (which God amazingly provided for me)! I will be a Podiatrist's assistant making a bit more than I make here as well as being sent back to school. I am a little nervous but very excited.

I am truly blessed!!

Life is a whirlwind, but very exciting at the moment. I know that I can't expect life (and marriage) to always be bliss, but I also know this: Lean on God. Live in the moment. Love to the fullest. Lift others up - and - Laugh as much as possible!